It started with the phonecall, the voicemail, the text all in that order.
You got my contact info from a friend and the chase began
You checked on me on your breaks at work, you sent me text messages
We talked for hours, opened up to each other, shread secrets, joys, sadness
The list goes on, we became a part of each others lives
I accepted your burdens, your baggage, your past, your vulnerabilites, your insecurities but mine was a sight for sore eyes.
Only to wake up on a Friday morning to realize the whole thing was over.
I wanted you to realize that i wanted to be there for you like no other
I wanted to take care of you when you were ill
I wanted to grow with you
Then i realized maybe we didnt want the same things,
Maybe i was not worth hanging onto in time of difficulty
Maybe i was not the definition of the women you wanted to spend your lie with even when that was what you said. Actions speak louder than words,
The “maybes” are your problem not mine.
There is no need to hang around because you have picked another, and another
I chose to love you
I made the commitment to love you but you faltered
You looked for reasons to leave
I love myself
People love me unconditionally and i find comfort in that knowledge
I am worthy of someone who loves me wholly and completely
I am also worthy of getting unconditional love because it is something i am willing to give.
To anyone reading this, self love is utmost. You are the best thing that will ever happen to someone in your future and dont ever think for one second that you are not good enough.